To My Former Best Friend,
Did we ever think there would come a day where our phones weren’t constantly blowing up with our crazy conversations? I know I didn’t. I remember when I first met you I didn’t ever think we’d be friends, but I was so wrong. If I recall correctly, it took all of 3 days to became inseparable. It was like you were the long lost part of my soul that I had been searching for my entire life.
God, how things have changed.
We don’t talk anymore. I don’t know how your life is going or what kind of changes you may have gone through. I don’t know how your love life is. Are you happy? I hope you’re happy, you deserve nothing less. I don’t know where you’re living. Did you finally leave home? How is it? Are you surviving by yourself?
It may not seem like it, but I do still care. I know this was the first year I didn’t wish you a happy birthday. I’ll be honest, I forgot. I guess that’s how you know we’re really not connected anymore. Just because we don’t talk doesn’t mean I don’t remember all the good times we use to have. You were my high school partner in crime. The person who held me the first time I had ever gotten my heart broken; how could I ever forget that?
I never thought we’d grow apart, but I guess we really did. We just wanted different things in life. You were happy in our hometown and I wanted to see the world. It just wasn’t working. We started dating people that would never get along. I know that shouldn’t be a reason a friendship ends, but that is what happens when you start to grow up.
I used to call your parents mom and dad. I was at your family functions, even if you weren’t. It’s so strange that I don’t even know how to talk to them anymore. There’s a weird awkward tension whenever I see them. Maybe it’s guilt because I let our friendship wither away to nothing and never tried to save it. Maybe it’s because I never call you to see how you’re doing or how the family is.
I don’t even know what to say to you when I run into you somewhere. You used to know all of my deepest darkest secrets and now I don’t even know how to say hi to you. I’ve successfully avoided you a few times. I know that’s probably a terrible thing to say, but I just can’t admit to you why I didn’t try harder.
I didn’t get new best friends. I just grew closer to people I already loved. Sometimes, you need to have more of a common ground. They’re amazing people though, so you don’t have to worry about whether or not I’m in good hands. I hope your new best friends treat you nicely as well. You’re smart, I know you would never let anyone treat you like sh*t, or at least I hope not.
I think what hurts most is how we promised each other when the time came, we’d be each other’s Maids of Honor. That isn’t the case anymore. It kind of sucks because we have some pretty great stories, but I guess they just won’t be told that day. I’m not running down the isle by any means, but rumor has it you’re getting pretty serious with your guy. Like I said, I just hope you’re happy.
Chances are I won’t even be at the wedding let alone next to you. It’s been years since we’ve really spoken; our friendship seems as if it was a lifetime ago.
I really do hope all is well. I hope all of your dreams come true and you never know pain or heartache. Thank you for being a good friend and giving me so many smiles.
See you around.